Things I Miss

In no particular order

~ Sleeping for 7 or 8 hours in a row without waking up to even go pee. It's been roughly about 10 months since I've been able to do this. I think I will wake up crying the day I am able to do this again cause I'm sure it won't be for awhile.

~ Dancing with City Dances. I will ALWAYS miss this. Heck, even YSA dances. But only cause I had the most awesome group of friends that liked to get down as much as I did. :-)

~ Being Pre-pregnancy weight and I would even go as far to say as pre- engaged to James weight. Yeah, I know what you're thinking, "but you are already thin why do you feel like you need to loose more weight?" and to that I say, to each their own. I know what my personal best is for my body and I haven't been that for about a year and a half cause I let myself slack off cause I was too busy planning for a wedding, got married, and then got pregnant 3 weeks later. I'm used to being toned and that's what I'm looking forward to getting back. And I will! I worked out at Gold's Gym for about 4 or 5 weeks after I got married and then started to get morning sickness pretty bad. I can't wait til I'm all healed and can go to the gym. I really hope it's soon. Cause I really just miss..

~Being active. I have cabin fever. Bad. I want the sun to come out. So I guess I also miss,

~The sun. Warm weather. I never thought I would miss Fresno's heat, but I actually do. Am I crazy? Maybe. I used to hate the summer, but because I haven't had a Fresno summer for the past 2 seasons, I've grown to appreciate it. Bring on the heat!

~LLHN. Adrienne. Becky. Kristen. Laura Grace. Regina. I really miss our time together. It feels like ages since we've all been in the same room or even the same town at the same time. There is always at least one of us missing now. I can't wait until we can all be together in the same room again.
~ I miss One Accord. Even though there were some stressful things associated with it. I just miss singing with all of my close friends. It is one of the best feelings in the world.


I think part of the reason I miss all of these things so much is because my life seems to be very stagnant since I have lived here. Yes, I have a wonderful husband and a beautiful daughter and I wouldn't trade their place in my life for all of the dancing in this world, but there are things about our situation that are hard for me to deal with. The quality time spent with my husband is very little. His major is so demanding that I feel like he is always doing nothing but homework, or studying for a test or taking one. I appreciate all of his hard work to make a better life for our family, but it doesn't change the fact that it is still hard. And being the wonderful man that he is, he pretends that he doesn't have to do homework sometimes so that he can spend a little time with me. Only for him to be up until 3 in the morning finishing what he could've, if we hadn't spent those 2 hours together. And then up again at 7 or 8 to start another long day.

So this leads me to things that I love more then then the things I miss.

~ My husband James. The best of the best.


~Our beautiful daughter Janen.



~The Gospel and my knowledge and testimony of it.
~Personal growth
~The Savior.